About

Grace’s story

Christian Apologist

Grace Miller is a certified Christian Apologist, 7 year Youth Leader, and Missionary who has dedicated her life to spreading and defending the gospel of Jesus Christ. She grew up in a small town in New Jersey, USA where she attended a local church since she was 3 years old. Growing up in a christian household, there was no room for debate or dialogue against the existence of God. Specifically, Grace’s mother was a strict missionary in the church who did not tolerate even the slightest word or act against the faith. And, for much of Grace’s childhood, this was not a major issue. Grace believed and was baptized as a Christian at 8 years old, and began to faithfully follow Jesus and His teachings. It wasn’t until Grace was around 15 years old where things started to turn for the worse. Subtle, hidden voices of doubt and skepticism started to creep in. 

“Where did the Bible come from?” “Does God really exist?” “What if everyone is just making all this up?” These questions were among hundreds that plagued Grace’s heart and mind as she silently continued to remain a Christian. However, after many years of trying and failing to ignore these doubts, she started to investigate and search for the truth, even when it challenged her long-held beliefs. She was not willing to blindly perpetuate hand-me-down ideas. Grace had to know that what she believed, what she built her life on, was based on reality, not speculation or tradition. After grappling with doubts, skepticism and dark depression, Grace encountered the true God of the Universe through real life evidence and was forever transformed. Grace now aims to dedicate the rest of her life proclaiming and defending the Truth: the gospel of Jesus Christ. 

A Message from Grace

My story may shock many members of my Christian family and church but it was my reality. For several years, I felt like a fraud. I really wanted to believe but I just couldn’t. How could I blindly accept this faith when I had no evidence? Otherwise, why not accept Islam, or Buddhism, or Judaism? Or better yet, atheism? Why was Christianity the only true way? I couldn’t wrap my mind around blind faith, and although I routinely returned to church every Sunday, the voices of doubt never left me. I needed to know the truth. The quality of my life, both here on earth and possibly after, depended on it. I relate closely to well-known christian apologist, Michael Licona and his journey to becoming confident in Christ. 

To quote Licona “I asked God to reveal truth to me. I asked, “If I’m on the wrong track, please show me my error. Humiliate me if needed. Just break through any part of my conditioning that’s prohibiting me from seeing truth. I just want to follow You, Lord, even if You’re not who I think You are.” I prayed a similar prayer several times. Often, I felt shame and guilt. How could I ever doubt the one true King? How dare I question his Majesty? Would God hate me, once I discover who he is, because I doubted him all along? I soon realized that this shame I felt didn’t come from God, it came from strict church culture. In fact, God even says in his word, “You will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13. And again, “Come now, and let us reason together” Isaiah 1:18

If settling my doubts led to me being 100% surrendered to him, God would want me to do it. And if at the end of the day God didn’t exist, I would have nothing to worry about. When I started my search, I wasn’t sure if I would continue with Christianity. I investigated all religions carefully and honestly, and which ever had the most evidence and truth, even if it resulted in atheism, I would’ve chosen it. Opening myself up to other beliefs wasn’t an easy thing to do, but I was more interested in discovering and finding truth, even if doing so may have led to undesirable consequences.

Finally, when I found God, the person Jesus Christ, He was like an awakening; nothing I had ever known or experienced before. Sure, hearing about him and being taught about him since I was a child was nice, but I never truly knew him, personally. Even in my deeper search for the truth, I found that words on paper, in history books or research studies, still never sufficed. My head just kept spinning and spinning and, as a natural skeptic, I just couldn’t simply relent to any fact or reason. How could I trust mere words with my life? It wasn’t until God showed me who he was himself. It wasn’t just a scientific or historical discovery, it was a spiritual one. God radically saved my soul. And it all made sense. Everything. He is real, not just in existence, but to me. From that moment on, my entire life was transformed. And even that is an understatement. Christianity was no longer a fairytale or some story people made up to make themselves feel better. It was the Truth.

My greatest endeavor now is to help others who were in my previous position: lost, confused, and hungry for some kind of truth or meaning to this messed up world. People ask all the time, “Can we ever honestly know what truth is?” They would proclaim, “There is no absolute truth.” But, is that absolutely true? 

Even in that statement, there is a contradiction of itself. If you say, “We can’t be sure about anything”, well, are you sure about that?

This logic undermines itself by contradicting its own standard for truth. There is no way to escape the fact that truth exists and that it can be known. Some people would then argue, “Well, that is true for you but not for me.” But truth does not exist solely for the person who believes it. Truths and beliefs are two different things. Truth is independent of our beliefs. Beliefs, on the other hand, are necessarily personal. The question that now remains is, why would you want to know the truth? Why would you put so much effort and time into discovering it? Well, because truth is all there is. Your life’s purpose, meaning, and value are all dependent on it. This is the biggest question of your entire life: If God is real, if heaven and hell is real. The eternal destiny of our souls hinges on what we believe, especially on what we do with the Christian message. Is there an afterlife? Is there meaning and purpose to my current life? Can I experience true fulfillment, peace and satisfaction of my soul, even in chaos, right here on earth?

I have spoken to several different kinds of people. And honestly, many people are okay with not finding the truth. Many people are okay with not knowing, and just living for themselves. They reply, “I don’t know” to every life defining question, and they don’t care to know. But ask yourself, do you really want to risk it? Do you really want to risk possible eternal life or eternal death? Are you satisfied without doing honest research or investigation into the facts of science, history, and psychology to discover any fingerprints of God’s presence and design? Jesus is by far the most well known person in all of history and his life literally defines the time period of the world, wouldn’t you want to know if there is any truth to who he says he is?

Many people claim to want to know truth (to avoid living a lie), but refuse to look at the evidence and honestly challenge their own set of beliefs. They claim to want to know the truth, but immediately reject or denounce any idea or concept that challenges their current worldview. But it’s up to you to decide if finding the Truth is actually worth it. Are you ready, to the best of your ability, objectively analyze the facts and data presented before you, without allowing your own biases or desires to get in the way? There is evidence for the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. There is evidence for the existence of God and his power. There is evidence for miracles and the supernatural. 

I can provide it all for you, if you are willing to discover it. So, do you really want to know the truth?